Unfortunately this is not uncommon...... It's something I never thought in a million years my husband would do to me! Throughout my entire pregnancy I was so excited, I couldn't wait to find out what the sex of the baby was, and after we found out the sex of the baby which seem to take forever I was excited to shop for the baby and get things ready and of course was ecstatic and could not wait to see what he looks like in meet him for the first time.of course like any pregnant woman those are the thoughts that go through her head not how exhausted she is going to beafter the babies born and she's not thinking about how much work it's going to be keeping up the house work trying to keep everybody satisfied including her husband and making sure she gets the bond with the baby the way that she wants to. Well now all I can think about is how common this situation really is and now I feel stupid for being so excited I feel like I'm a bad person because I neglected my husband in ways I shouldn't havewhich at the same time I know is ridiculous because I was doing everything I was supposed to be doing and as a matter fact he has even looked at me and said the same exact thing! Well our baby boy is now eight weeks old well actually I guess you could say nine weeks old and two days ago I found out that he slept with someone else that was passing through someone he knew he would never see again someone he thought he wouldn't get caught with because no one knew who she was but he did get caught and all I can think about is how exhausted I am how hard I work to keep my household up to cook him dinner to make sure the bills are taken care of to make sure the kids are taken care of I don't even eat half the time or sleep and this being my 2nd baby I can say this pregnancy with him was awful I was in constant pain and or sick! The birth was awful everything about it was bad until I finally got to hold him in my arms and all I keep thinking is how hard I worked for those nine months how hard I worked to bring him into the world how hard I work to feed him and to take care of him and everyone else in my family and all he could think about was his own selfish needs! How do I get past something like this? I Moved away with him to a place where I know No1 but him and his family so I have no1 else but him and my children! I want so badly to leave but I'm terrified of being alone! The only person I have back home is my mom and I can't stay with her and if I did move to be closer with her I would never get to see her Bc she works long days 6 days a week so I would still be so alone! Right at this moment even still being in our house together with our children I feel all alone! I feel betrayed I feel hurt and disgusted! All the pain and hard work we Go though into bring them a child into this world, someone that will always be there with you no matter what, someone that will give you continuous love and a reason to wake up in the morning. And some of these men could care less. To them it's all about the things they didn't get or the things that changed! Oh and today is my birthday! Yay me 😒😒 It was supposed to be our first time without the kids in months and we were finally going to be able to reconnect and get back on the same level! So why the hell did he half to do it now? I mean why do it at all honestly?! But I mean he keeps saying that all he wanted was me and tried and tried until finally he gave into someone else who did want him! It's hard to believe that he JUST wanted me Bc he was going to have me! But he decided to fuck her on Wednesday And Thursday knowing the kids were going to be leaving to stay with some of his family Friday And Saturday! I feel so broken...... and lost! And it breaks my heart even more when I look at my new baby and think "IF ONLY" When I should be enjoying him, well WE should be!