Struggles

I struggle with being able to enjoy sex. I struggle to trust my husband's hands to be gentle, to not cause me pain. My past haunts me everyday and it pains me to be scared of the touch of the man I love. I want to enjoy his touch, his pleasures and us making love. How can the past hold so much power over a person? A past he wasn't there for but yet still has to suffer to see me in fear. 🥀