First time😬

Okay! So I am 18 and still a virgin. I've been big on keeping it to myself for the right someone. Well I have a boyfriend we talked for a whole month and now have been dating for almost a whole month. So I count it as almost two months of being together. He is 23. I know he has experience.

The other night he made out with me, which he has done before and gotten hard before from it.

This time he rubbed my clit and then took off my bottoms and rubbed and fingered me. I am the kind of person to over think and ask if I'm doing something right due to a old fling who judged me on how I kissed him every time. But, I payed there and realized this is really happening so I let it happen. He then placed my hand on his penis and I was fine with it. I did a very simple hand job not even enough to qualify it as a hand job and I stopped him by asking how far he was planning on going. He asked if I wanted to stop and that he would be okay if I did. So we went to bed.

I have a feeling next time I'm gonna wanna do it again and kinda anxious on the fact that I think we could end up having sex. (I'm on BC and I'd make sure he has a condom) but, I'm always self conscious thinking he is experienced and I'm not so, what if I mess up? Do something wrong? Or just really mess up?

I honest see my whole life with him and had to catch myself on saying how I still loved him for how he looked, cause he got a haircut, and I erased it and put liked lol. So, mortal to the story is, am I wrong for giving it to him? I didn't regret anything we did this past weekend. Am I also wrong for being nervous cause he has more experience than me?