I'm 19 and 29 weeks pregnant with a baby girl and I am beyond excited. No, it was not planned, and no, I'm not as ready as I could've been if we have planned, but me and my boyfriend are doing everything we can and want to do whatever it takes to it takes to raise our baby.

The other day, my mom came to me and told me that my second cousin and his wife are offering to take my child. I have talked to him maybe twice in my life and I'm not sure how he even found out I was pregnant. He lives across the country. It broke my heart to even think about giving away my child. I never considered adoption or brought up adoption to anyone, they only offered because I am young and not married and they are struggling to have children.

It really upset me that they even offered. Every day, I think about the fact that this couple who is ready to have a child, financially stable, married, and trying so hard for a baby can't, and I feel like by me saying no, I am taking that away from them...like they deserve her and I don't because I'm not 100% ready and I can't give her all they can. I want to give her my all, but it still wont be as much as them. I love her so much it breaks my heart. I know this is not a decision anyone can make for me and I'm not asking for anyone to, I just needed someone to vent to.