Venting.

I don't know where to start but know that I'm really frustrated. I'm 36 years old and have been trying to conceive for almost 2 years now. I did an HSG test in the beginning and found out I have a blocked right fallopian tube but still had a "chance" since dye went through the left tube. Fast forward to February of 2017, I started bleeding out clots. Clots the size and thickness of raw chicken tenders you buy at the market. My nurse practitioner said it could be from the double dose of Menopur. To stop the bleeding I had to consume 3 birth control pills per day to taper off the bleeding. We had to stop our fertility treatment and wait another 2 cycles. Waiting cycles is just as bad as the two week window you wait to see if you're pregnant. And when you do get the results and it's not want you want to see, you hop back on the emotional roller coaster. 9 IUIs later... and no pregnancy... in fact, no pregnancy, 1 less tube (removed right tube on 7/25/2017) and possibly a damaged left fallopian tube... how does one swallow the IVF pill knowing how much it costs? How are you coping with the process and where did you go? I'm in Northern California, the SF Bay Area to be exact. Any positive advice would be greatly appreciated and any real advice too. It's not aIways rainbows and butterflies. Thank you