My boyfriend swims all the time! He's literally a fish. He likes to go to the gym and swim and honestly I'm kinda jealous.

He's extremely fit and lean.. and I'm a chubby short potato. I have thick thighs and tummy flab. And love handles, and jiggly arms.

He made a joke once about always seeing sexy girls at the pool when he goes and now I'm so upset when he goes.

He says I should go with him but I'm way too self conscious to be in a bathing suit alongside some perfect swimmer Bitch. I absolutely despise my body. I think I'm disgusting to say the least. And not only that, I never learned how to swim... I have a fear of dark water.. and deep water.. and again back to the self consciousness.

It seems like he keeps trying to encourage me to work out and swim with him. Ive worked out more in the 4 months we've be been talking than I have in the last 3 years after having my son. He told me he can see a slight change in my body but he knows it won't be drastic but I see no change at all.