so, I woke up at like 7:30 this morning bcuz I felt like I was gonna throw up.....been sitting next to the toilet waiting for it to come up. I'm scared cuz I haven't thrown up in a very long time ( I'm 20, haven't thrown up since I was like 8 or 9). I kno if I do, I'll feel better, but I can't seem to make myself do it, then when I feel it coming up, I hold it back bcuz I get scared it will hurt. I dont like to throw up. I feel like shit. sorry, just needed to vent.