I'm a 17 year old female, I graduated this year. I can't drive and am often left in my house for hours on end and nobody comes home till about 3am everyday. My boyfriend comes over to try and support me but we end up fighting every time now. Graduating for me wasn't a big joy, I didn't get to party or celebrate like most of my peers. The week of graduating I had an episode and broke my tv and cell phone. The second week after I graduated I was taken to the hospital for being unsafe to myself and others. I had to take two psychological evaluations. Borderline personality disorder and schizophrenia both came up. But I'm still only 17 so I cant get either one of those diagnosis. Once my boyfriend found out, he was less than supportive and just talked to me like some sort of patient. I haven't felt love at all since then. I've only ever felt like a patient who gets " checked on". We don't go on dates anymore, all we do is fight now. I feel like my life has gone to hell and my head has taken over my life. I didn't ask for any of this, but nobody does. I feel helpless and don't know what to do anymore. I have to take Trileptal and Trazadone to help me sleep, but both medications just make me stay in bed for 24 hours straight. I haven't left my house all week, or even my bed.

Everything kinda sucks