I don't know if I can do this.

My baby will be 5 weeks old on Thursday and I truly love her with all of my heart. My husband has been supportive and helpful when he isn't working. I'm still at home on maternity leave. I don't want to eat. I can't sleep. Even when she's sleeping, I'm too paranoid to even attempt to close my eyes. When she sleeps, I catch up on housework. I had my first breakdown tonight because I'm having trouble feeding her and it all hit me at once. She was crying and crying and I couldn't calm her down so my husband took her and I lost it. I love my baby so much but I feel so overwhelmed. I feel like I'm doing everything wrong. I thought I was ready for this. I don't know how I'm going to survive when I go back to work in two weeks I know she's an innocent baby who can't help it and I feel like the worst person on Earth for feeling the way I feel. I don't know what to do.