I’m 23 turning 24 in December. My ex and I were together for 10 years and we broke up about a year ago. We still live together due to finances and the lease of our apartment. Because we live together we still end up sleeping together. In December I found out I was pregnant he freaked out of course and told me I could do whatever I wanted but he wasn’t going to be there for me or the baby and either I had to move out after the baby was born for he would move out after the baby was born leaving me alone with a child in a different state from all my family. He made it very clear he wanted me to have an abortion and I felt alone and tripped so I went ahead with the abortion and regretted it shortly after. I’ve tried to deal with it and move past it. after a few months my ex admitted a couple times and that he wants to have kids with me still. And it totally fucked with my mind and made healing a lot harder. Now here we are 7 months after the termination and I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant again. Yes I’m on birth control and yes I take it every day same time a day. also one day he did cum inside me so I took plan B. I’m so scared to take a test and for it to be real. I’ve told my ex that I’m late and of course now he’s saying he wants nothing to do with it. I just don’t know what to do. I’ve never felt so lost and alone. This is just insane. I feel like I’m being punished. I just need someone to talk to about this and I feel like I have no one.