I am a senior in college and at the end of February beginning of March I had a miscarriage. Since I was 16 I was told I was going to need <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> get pregnant or other treatments so when I actually got pregnant I had no idea. I just all my symptoms off as just getting sick or I must be getting my period. The end of February comes and my period is here, it was such a surprise considering I hadn’t gotten it in a month. First day was just spotting and then my miscarriage came. I was in excruciating pain but still had no idea I was losing my baby because it never occurred I was pregnant. Fast forward a week of still heavy bleeding and clots, I go to my obgyn at home and take a test that comes back positive. I get order bloodwork to find out if my levels were dropping. Indeed they were and I just found out I was having a miscarriage. How is it possible all my life being told I couldn’t have a baby and then have one inside me and doing all these harmful things like drinking. These past months have been the hardest months because all I blame is myself. What if I didnt drink or what if I just took a test. I know with pcos miscarriages are normal but at 21 this is one of the hardest thing I ever had to deal with. I know this might not be the form but I just needed to get this out there. I have no one here who understands how I fee.