hi, um, okay so i need help with my situation with my beliefs and how i should explain how i feel to my parents. so i have my mom and dad and they both have different beliefs. my mom is a jehovah's witness and my dad is a christian. technically i'm still a christian but idk. in the beginning when my little sister and i were born, my dad enlisted in the army and be deployed. so my dad left and my little sister and i were with our mom so we would go to our congregation-- the Kingdom Hall. when our dad was able to leave from where he was stationed at to visit, we--my sister and i (few times with our mom) would go to church with dad. so this kind of-sort of went on for about 15 years, i guess, but we went mostly with mom. okay so now this next part my parents had probably been talking about this for a long time and by the time i got to 15 i started paying attention more, and discovered that dad was thinking about retiring from the military. the reason being that both my parents thought that he was missing out on stuff with the three of his girls. so he retired, went to interviews, got a job. so my parents came up with a plan. one daughter goes with one parent to their congregation and switch daughters for the next week. okay, i have been feeling with way for a long time now, i think that it's out with it. i don't want to be a jehovah's witness anymore. but i still don't know how to feel about being at church. but the problem is that i don't really feel Jehovah's or God's presence but the thing is that i KNOW that there is a God somewhere. i'm not an atheist but there are some days that i don't wanna be told to pray EVERY SINGLE TIME i have a bad day. please help. thanks. (:

-update

i would like to thank everyone who is reaching out to me. lots of love to you guys.❤️ i would also like to tell you that i have been having a better attitude, especially on sundays. i found myself liking to go to church with my dad. i feel comfortable and safe. i plan to talk to my parents about how i feel when i know exactly what i want to say, because i never know how to put my thoughts into words, them being so strict in what they believe in, i don't want them to get into a fight because of how i feel about religious topics. but thank you for all of your help once again. i will try to read the bible more.❤️🙂