Ttc blues 😔

I was 18 days late for af this month. And have been totally regular for 7 months. So I really thought i was pregnant. Even with the negative tests, I was having all the symptoms of early pregnancy. I had a gut feeling and I truly believed it. I thought maybe my levels were just too low to show on a test still so I went ahead and made an ob appointment. And then af showed. Now I've been so emotional. I miss how happy I was when I thought it was a possibility of being pregnant. We want this so badly. And I'm having a hard time. The sad and depressing thoughts are creeping up on me and my endo is even more painful this month. And I've been working with women who are living in a homeless shelter with 4-5 kids that they can't take care of and they've been telling me how they want more!!!! It's not fair! Ugh, just venting here. I hope if there's any other ladies out there experiencing this we can help each other through it. Baby dust to you all