Im having a baby with my cousin. 😐
I am from a old school half indian & half jamaican family.
My fathers side of the family (the indian side) has built their lives on secrets; from love children to deep family secrets.
Now, i am 25yrs old & i know all my uncles on my fathers side, theres 4.
Recently, my grandfather died & with that his secrets from his past came pouring out like hot water down your back.
he had a love child with apparently "the love of his life" whom is not my grandmother.
Now, while i couldn't care less because im excited to get an new uncle & meet him.
That secret was the worst thing that could ever happen to me, because right now I found out the guy im with is my half cousin?...well my first cousin nonetheless. (Same grandpa, different grandmas)
The walls closed in & next thing i knew i was in the shit load of mess because now im 2 months pregnant with our child & im beyond stressed & im losing my mind.
i've been doing research from genetics to the bible.
& to find out there are people who are with their cousins & they have healthy babies & then theres the whole bible argument of God making cousins wed each other & no where in the bible does it say that cousins are deemed "incest"...& much more.
ofcourse theres the fact that our family is going to go fucking nuts, he thinks they're going to disown him & have resentment to our child & apparently our child will bring on "Armageddon" & division to our family.
We went from happy, picking names, thinking of the future...to him constantly telling me i need to get an abortion asap.
i have already said no, we've broken up, he now says he never loved me it was lust & everyones going to say he should know better & that he shouldn't feel this way for his cousin...
& for him to still feel those ways towards me is wrong & we pretty much have been on opposite sides to this ever since.
my doctor has said the chances of a "abnormal" baby is increased by 1-2% but definitely not enough to scare first cousins from being together since its already not "politically correct".
Reg. non-related couples % is 2-3 while related % is 3-4.
while the science is great, my family not so much.
I don't want to get an abortion, i couldn't live with myself if i did. I do love him, but i can't kill my child because of my family & their past secrets.
I shouldv'e known him, his brothers, sisters, my uncle!
All of em' & i didn't because my uncle was a secret "love child" & now my child will be the "abomination" child because of years of secret & lies.
my love for him has been dying since he talks so badly about our child but I understand where his thought process comes from but, unless medically nessesary im not "getting rid" of my child.
My father will be beyond destroyed
My uncle will be beyond hurt and destroyed & i've accepted that, no one knows yet & when this comes out its going to be a mess.
My (newly found) Uncle has had a hard life with the family seeing as everyone knew he was a "outside child" & he was treated very badly by his siblings so, my childs dad doesn't want his father going through anymore hard times, because once my uncles siblings (on his mothers side) finds out about this, they will NEVER EVER let it go & will use it against him forever & will spread it like wild fire...
In our indian heritage its encouraged to marry your cousins & such but, that mentality must of skipped past my fathers generation because they don't believe in that & my grandfather isn't here anymore & hes the only one who would accept it along with my great grandfathers generation...
Regardless, now me & my childs father do not speak because i know what the conversation is going to be about so im currently avoiding him like the plague.
you guys, iunno what to do...
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