hello sisters!! i feel a bit ashamed saying this, but i stretched out my hymen many years ago /; (i did not have sex, i fingered myself) will allah punish me? i have quit doing so but oh man the guilt that i still have from it. i know that i am still a virgin and such i just simply stretched out the hymen a bit, so does it really matter ?? how can i beg allah for forgiveness i feel horrible about it and i have for almost 2 years till the point where i still cry /: