People are probably going to laugh at me for this.

I have something on my chest. I have wanted to become Amish and be a part of the Amish church for as long as I can remember. I have done so much research and I really want to be an Old-Order Amish. You'll probably laugh when you hear this but I am serious. I really don't know what to do. You also probably think that it's weird I'm on a phone. I limit access and 100% plan to get rid of it if I join the Amish.