Afraid for others to watch my child.

Marissa • I'm just as lost as anybody else • Taking my life day by day
I just returned to work part time from my 5 month maternity leave, and my mother has been watching my baby while I work. She's very patient and nurtering. However, the past few days my baby has been on a kick of crying if you don't hold him. He wasn't like this before, and last night my mom got so upset with him and handed him to me and just walked away saying "I've lost my patience". This made me so upset that I didn't go to work today because I didn't want to leave him with her. What do you all do for child care?? How can you trust that someone won't get too annoyed with your child. I don't ever see her harming him, but in the future I'll need outside child care and I'm so scared someone else could "lose their patience" and something would go wrong. Part of me just wants to quit my job. What do I do??