feels likebthere is a wedge between us

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will be married for 3 year s at the end of febuary. the year before we got married and say around six month into being married was a cake walk . I've known my husband since my senior year of high school we dated for about 3-6 months I really can't remember. but stayed in touch on and off. was in a relationship for 4 years with my ex and had two beautiful daughters now 3 and 6. my husband and I have been trying to get pregnant since we got married. I was on the shot for birth control for a year before marriage. then with doctors help stoped. no luck yet which puts a little bit of strain on relationship. suppose to be going to a fertility specialist on the 17th with my husband to see if there are any options for us to concieve. in the mean time what really is driving a wedge is finding a happy medium of spending time together as a family and going out and having a social life. I have moderate anxiety which always it seems to cause arguments when he wants to go out to hang with is friends minus the kids and i.i don't have many friends burned those bridges.so I work and do stuff at home..I understand having a life outside of being a family. just thought when I got married to him we would include the whole family for the most part and other activities would come secound. any advice would be helpful I know I wrote a book just feeling lost....help