I was 12 dpo this morning so I decided to test. BFN. But there's still hope, AF isn't due for another 4 days! Nope. 30 minutes or so after the test guess who shows up early?

Feeling really low right now. I try not to get my hopes up but it still happens every cycle.

I think the hardest part is having no one to talk to about any of this. My husband wants a child but he is very patient about it. My best friends aren't any help - one got pregnant her first time in hs, had an abortion and is now very anti children - and the other wasn't trying and got pregnant... now has an adorable little one that "she didn't ask for" (she loves him of course but she doesn't get where I am coming from).

Anyway, I just needed a place to get this stuff out. Thanks for listening.