frustrated

I'm struggling here ....i am trying to loose some weight, healthy ways of eating getting exercise, if and when I get pregnant I want to be able to carry without pain that I'm feeling with nkw. my husband is overweight and always talks about wanting to loose but when I offer going to the gym or doing a full family life style change in eating there is no support or trying at al from him. My biggest frustration right now is how boring things are and how I will get excited about doing something and it's just nothing to him. I hate complaining about things because I really just try to live half full not empty type of thinking. I love my family and adore my kids but the idea that the end of the month is my birthday and I will have basically become the working mom that is just no fun, never go out, can't afford to go most of the time, husband doesn't put effort into anything anymore with us either and I'll say something only to feel as though it's all me. just so tired of feeling tired and never having any fun in my life anymore...use to go on short little trips to another town just to explore something new , use to go for drives just to be out of the house and see scenery. I'm at the end of my rope with things and always ending up doing things on my own, never date nights even when I set them up. no anything really. just work and home and work and home. I don't even try to dress up or get excited for anything because it's always a huge let down and I then just feel crappy and disappointed all the time. I'm sorry to rant but I'm just stuck on what to do anymore. I know he loves me and I love him, he works hard but only when it's for him. please no leave him posts cause that's not happening just needed to vent a little i guess.