Feeling like shit about myself

Just have to vent. Lately I've been feeling like shit about my appearance. My boyfriend has acted uninterested in my appearance for a while now. I tried doing my makeup really nice for a while to try to get him turned on. Instead he pointed out the tiny flaws with my makeup and never told me I looked beautiful. And I know he likes girls with makeup, he watches porn with pretty girls. I would try wearing skimpy outfits when just me and him were chilling at home with no plan to go out but he would complain that I was showing too much skin... in our own home. So for months I just stopped wearing makeup or dressing nice which has effected the way I feel about myself too.

So it's the weekend and my family invited us out to dinner and even offered to pay for us. I finally did my makeup and made sure there wasn't even a tiny flaw. I spent time curling my hair which I never do and put on a nice outfit. I mainly did this because I hoped my boyfriend would now get turned on since it's been a while I've looked pretty. But he laughed at me for doing my hair. He actually told me to stop. And when I was all done he just stared at me like he was judging me, trying to find a flaw, and asked why I was all done up. I reminded him we have a dinner to go to. He got mad cuz he doesn't want to go and went to bed at 2pm even though he got plenty of sleep yesterday. I tried being flirty, hoping for sex, but as usual he wasn't having it. I asked him if he wanted to go out and do something fun instead of going to dinner and he said no.

I just want him to want me again. He's making me feel so unattractive. I don't think this is normal. We've only been together a little over a year. 😞