It's Not FAIR!!

Okay so I've been TTC for a while I've had my first miscarriage less than a month ago...so it's been a whirlwind of a summer to say the least..and just when I think I can start to walk tall and keep trying...I find out that my sister-n-law is pregnant with her 4th when she doesn't even take care of her first 3!!

I'm just so frustrated and can't help but to feel angry towards her.

Long story short, her & my brother met at a club they got pregnant, had my niece & basically gave her to my mom. We have raised her, same with the next two babies. My sister-n-law doesn't take care of herself, she's a stoner & a drinker. She had kids for the attention & that's it. I love my nieces & nephew more than I can measure but I'm so frustrated.

I just need some kind words and words of wisdom.

I know I shouldn't feel so angry but I do. I know I chose to help but I did it for the kids cuz they didn't ask to be here.