3 years ttc

We've been ttc for 3 years. We've been successful 2 times but the pregnancies ended in miscarriages (1 preterm at 11 weeks and the other as a normal miscarriage at 9 weeks) the last 8 months we've tried everything. I've tracked when I ovulated, tracked my weight, temp, diet. Took prenatals and over the counter fertility pills. I've done everything that I can afford. I'm high risk for cervical cancer so no doctors around my area will see me and have referred me to a ob/gyn but I have no health insurance so I can't afford it. I'm hopeless. My faith is slipping. I'm a jealous, hateful person towards anyone pregnant or has kids. What's even worse is that I work at a daycare and see everyone else's babies on a daily basis. The only advice anyone gives me is that "it'll happen when it's supposed to happen" and I'm so tired of hearing that. Not only am I frustrated that we are struggling to conceive but the anxiety of when or if it does happen, I'm not guaranteed of holding the pregnancy. Please, I need prayers for strength, cause I'm close to losing it