huh... my baby is more powerful a balm than cutting

don't know why I feel like sharing this but I do. for anyone who has any experience with cutting, you know that it's not something you do for attention. It's something you do at your darkest moments because it's actually soothing. it's something I only turn to maybe once a year if even that and I had one of those moments last night. I started and then I looked over at my son on the baby monitor, stopped, and picked him up instead. he was still sleeping but I curled him up with me in bed and... who knew.... holding him was a thousand times better than anything else. he took the pain away just by existing.

I guess I don't have a point to this but maybe someone who reads this and is feeling sad we'll go pick up their little one and feel a bit better