I just need to vent and write out my thoughts because I feel like I'm going crazy. Here's my story:

After 4 months of trying, I found out I was pregnant in April! At 7+ weeks, I had an ultrasound and heard the heartbeat... it all went down hill from there. After what seemed like forever of questioning some bleeding, I miscarried at 10 weeks. I was devastated and it took a harsh toll on my body. My husband and I decided to try again after having another period, which the doctor said would be fine.

Well... last Sunday, I got another positive! I knew something wasn't right though when I took another test the next morning and it was lighter. I knew right away it was going to be a chemical pregnancy. I had an appointment at a different doctor last Tuesday for something else and they did blood work and confirmed the pregnancy. I also got a positive on a digital test. On Thursday, there was some blood when I wiped. The nurse said it was normal and to just monitor it. I decided to take another pregnancy test and it was what a feared- negative. The next day, I cramped, bled, and passed the tissue. But what wAs weird was the bleeding was relatively light, only one clot, and only lasted 3 days.

Over the weekend, my symptoms picked up and I feel more pregnant now than I did a week ago! How is that possible when I didn't even have enough hormones left to get a positive test. Probably my mind playing tricks on me. It is so weird because I didn't feel like this after 10 weeks of being pregnant and miscarrying. After what would be about 5 weeks, the tests are negative and the symptoms are still strong.

I went to the doctor this morning and they of course got a negative test, but sent blood work off... and this is where I feel like a crazy person. For some reason, my mind is convinced I'm still pregnant! Maybe I miscarried a twin?! No. Not possible. The pregnancy tests are negative. I've googled so much the past couple of days about miscarriage, still being pregnant with negative tests... but still being pregnant with negative tests after having a positive? No way.

I logically know I'm not still pregnant. There's no way. Second miscarriage in 2 months... I know the deal. Now I'm being told I need to wait 3 months to try again. Why is my mind thinking like this?! Am I the only one that feels like I'm going crazy?!

no period and negative test.