The closer I get to AF the harder it is

Baby
The first week of the tww - no problem. The last five dies are terrible. Have had intermittent cramping since 4dpo, consistently every day off and on. The last two days it's been a little more intense. I also caved and took a HPT with a BFN. Pretty sure AF is on her way and I wish she would just show if that's her plan (although I really don't want her too).