The universe is cruel.


I've been actively TTC for 9 months now. I thought for sure this month was the month. The symptoms were and are still there. I had my period last week, I think. There was one day if spotting, three days of lighter than usual bleeding, and then three days of spotting. I tested this morning, still negative. I checked the mail today and found a thick envelope from my insurance. I figured it was a book of doctors that took my insurance and stuff. No, it was a package of information pretty much saying CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR PREGNANCY, HERE ARE THE NEXT STEPS FOR A HEALTHY PREGNANCY. I haven't been to the doctor in MONTHS. I have no earthly idea why I was sent this. I'm trying so hard not to cry. I have no idea why I got this abd it feels like a cruel joke.