BOTH of my sister in laws are pregnant....

Shanae

I'm having a breakdown right now. Both of my sister in laws are pregnant. NEITHER of them was trying or has voiced their wishes to become pregnant. Yes of course I'm happy for them but mainly I'm so hurt. Not by them but by the universe, by God. My heart is broken and I was just slapped in the face and kicked while I was down. This is one of my in laws 3rd child! I've been trying for 1 yr and a half and I can't have one since my miscarriage?? What's worse is I tried to express my discouragement to my partner and he just took it as me blaming him. I don't know how to deal with all these emotions. I am so broken right now when I should be overjoyed. I feel guilt and shame on top of my sadness. I don't mean to be so selfish. Please pray for my broken heart to mend and for my mind to stop saying mean things to me.