how do you deal...

after 15 months of ttc my husband and i finally fell pregnant out of no where last month, it was such a surprise for us all! we found out june 8th after we came home from vacation, and couldnt wait to tell our family and friends. it was our first, and didnt even think it could happen after giving it a go for so long. well, 10 days after we found out this lovely news the worst happened, i woke up early in the morning on July 18th with cramps that would not go away and they were bad enough i could not go back to sleep. i knew something wasnt right. after a few hours i went to the bathroom and i passed a large clot and was petrified..not hoping the worst we went to urgent care later that day...i was pregnant but they figure it was a forced miscarriage and to wait it out...so many doctors appts and blood tests after and a week later it was confirmed. we lost our child. we were so devistated. we are devistated. the good news is that we know we can, the bad news, we have to carry our first in our souls for the rest of our waking lives. we decided ttc again this month after the miscarriage bleeding stopped, which was scant for a week after the inital clottage i had passed. and to my surprise..it didnt work. got my period today and ofcourse, as usual, its the worst pain ever, even the miscarriage was half what i feel each period. this just really sucks. we want our rainbow baby so bad..im sure itll happen one day but it sucks to have to wait longer than the 8 i should have been waiting right now. it hurts. its hard to cope. itll be 1 month since its happened tomorrow. how do i stay happy when i know that how hard we just tried again failed right after. ofcourse being on your period and having these surges of hormones dont help. how long did it take and of you ladies to concieve after a miscarriage?