My family and I need prayers to be saved. I'm working on repentance right now but it's difficult. I want to be saved and accept him but I feel like I'm missing something. I've been thinking about what it is..In order to repent you need to be sorry for your sins right? Or is it possible to just do it? I wouldn't say in sorry for my sins and I know thats bad of course I'm just being honest.😁 most of my sins in so used to and they are so easy to do and so difficult to stop. They seem pretty normal to me I've been living this way for so long, I do know it's bad but I just don't feel sorry for some reason. Like some of my bigger sins I do feel guilty and ashamed and I just get upset with myself but its not enough to lead me to repentance. I feel like I need that conviction to learn to hate the sin and never want to do it again. I feel helpless and as if I'm never going to repent... With all that's going on in this world lately, and all these signs I feel things are going to end/get bad very soon and I'm not ready, I'm pretty nervous. I feel like I can't repent on my own (or is it possible to completely repent all on your own) or maybe I'm just not trying hard enough. But like I said its just so easy to sin and so hard to stop. It seems so much easier for other people. Like I watch people's videos of their testimonies and it seems so easy for them. I feel like I might need a miracle or something. Do you NEED conviction to repent and be saved? I will say one more thing, I do feel ashamed to pray. I know it's very bad but I just feel embarrassed because of my sin and awkward..it's weird because a while back when I was like ten and pure, I didn't sin besides maybe lying, I wasn't christian and didn't really know anything about it. I went to church for a bit and church camp, however it didn't turn me into a christian it KIND IF went through one ear and out the other. However maybe it planted seeds and that's why I'm here today learning more about God and all that stuff. But ANYWAY I remember occasionally I prayed but back then it was very very easy I didn't have any wrong feeling about it, I felt very open to praying. I for some reason don't feel the same anymore...I wonder if it's my sin. When I started dealing with the bigger sins like masturbation and porn I knew it was bad before I even found the truth, but you know how the bible says you become a slave to sin...yep. I've actually managed to repent of those sins. I've fell back into to it a couple times, but as of for now I'm doing pretty good. However, I now deal with some other sins. I now deal with lustful thoughts, and I've come to realize gluttony is a sin, I struggle with this one a lot too. It so easy to gorge on food especially when my kitchen is right by me room with a bunch of snacks.😁 And I find myself stressed a lot and nothing else can seems to ease my stress like food.😁 It's become quite a habit as well. I know what I want, I want to be righteous and good, and to feel his love and be obedient, and to go to heaven. I want to become apart of the family. Idk maybe I just don't want it enough🤔...Anyway sorry for the long post. Prayers are appreciated, thank you in advance. I would also be thankful for some feedback. Please be kind😁💕✨