Lost my rainbow baby Lea Reign

02/24/16 I miscarriage our first little one at six weeks. We moved to Tulsa Ok October 16' and on 02/24/17 we confirmed we were pregnant again with our Lea! Went in on Monday leaking fluid was rushed out stating it wasn't my water and on May 24th I gave birth at 18 weeks! We were suppose to go to see New Kids on the Block that night instead at 446pm I stopped crying long enough to witness my husband holding Lea for the first and last time! Today 8/17 I am so mad guilty lonely jealous as hell! Just needed to vent💔