Feeling down and sucidal

i live at home still. (sadly) i'm 23 years old. im constantly being told that i have no life.

which i have a job and go to school? what else does my mom want from me? Like seriously. If i didn't have a life then i wouldn't be alive right now . She's getting on my nerves so much and talking crap about me to people. but why does she tel me "i have no life." Like their has to be a reason why she's telling me that. Im different so i rather stay home watch movies study and eat. when im not working or have no homework . Ugh i want to move out so bad but it's hard to save up !!!!!!!!! sometimes i feel sucidal because she doesn't encourage me or motivates me just says negative stuff to me . that's why a lot of people are so depressed and sucidal because people like my mother