I need to vent...

My husband and I so desperately want another baby. We have been "trying" for three months now. Which I know isn't long at all. I'm annoyed because of how impatient I am. I constantly feel this overwhelming anger about not being pregnant. All I see is pregnant women and newborn babies.

My husband and I have a lousy sex life.. our work schedules over lap each other. he works the night shift, which just makes him even more tired when he's actually home. He talks about "the baby" all the time, but we never TRY to even make a baby. It's like we have this preconceived picture in our minds about this baby but aren't even doing anything to legitimately "make" the baby. Plus, I have irregular periods and the stress of that is a lot of pressure on me.

I get annoyed when my sister talks about how easy it was for her to get pregnant with all three of her kids. She doesn't understand the struggle of trying to conceive.

I know multiple women who are "accidentally" pregnant. It pisses me off so much when people say that. Why do people deserve "surprise" babies when my husband and I want another baby so badly.

I hate this process so much. I know that feeling this way could prolong the conceiving process also because of how stressed I am about it.

I know our time will come when it's suppose to. But the waiting game is so hard 😣