ttc with endometriosis

well i had my first child unplanned at 16.(2004) shortly after having her i started to struggled with endometriosis. about 2 years into it it i was miserable. thats when i had my first laparoscopy to try to help the symptoms. when my daughter was 4 i met my now husband(married 2010) knowing that it would be hard to get pregnant again we tried right away for a child together. in 2011 after trying with no luck and 3 rounds of clomid we had a misscarage on August2. we took a break and were going to go back to dr in october 2012. we were out of town so put it off. a couple weeks went by and i was sick so i thought. but nope it was our miracle. our first together but my second baby. she was born 5/9/2012. she was 9 weeks early and spent a long time in the hospital. for a few years i felt great with no pain untill one day 11/2014 the pain had become unbearable again. i had another surgery to burn the endometriosis in early 2015. we gave up on more kids for a while. and started to no prevent it in 2016 lol. we had no luck after a year so stopped trying. we recently started to really try again last month but no luck. im hoping its not over for us but i find it hard to not hate my body for being messed up amd feeling thats the reason were struggling. please pray for us to grow our family together.