I always hang on too tightly to guys. Like any one I meet, I cling onto them. I fall for them but I don't. Like this one guy I met. He's nice and all. But I'm ruining everything. Any guy I meet I always envision him liking me and I fall in love with that version. The version I create in my head. And I try to apply it to the guy. It doesn't work like that tho. I don't know why I do it. I always thought my best friend liked me but he ended up being gay. I couldn't even see any signs. Does anyone else do this? I think it's just my need to be loved because I don't feel like I am. I just imagine being loved and want him to turn out to be that guy. The one I want who wants me. The one from the books and movies. And I try to take breaks form guys but now I have an actual crush on one. And I can't even tell if it's a crush or just me falling in love with who I want him to be.