So I was just on FaceTime with my boyfriend. And he woke up about an hour ago after having a bad nightmare and hasn't been in a good mood since.

I understand that, but he left me on the phone to go outside to listen to music, and it did something it's been doing a lot lately. The whole screen went black then the call just ended. (It's not going dead. Something is apparently just wrong with one of our internets, although I thought beforehand that it was the phones themselves.) So I texted him on Facebook because he has another phone that's logged into Facebook that he usually takes outside with him, but I also sent him a message on his actual phone.

This was the result.

He called me directly after his last message and told me that he was tired of me always making excuses for everything. He said he wouldn't have gotten as mad if I hadn't started trying to come up with excuses for why I sent him the texts. Then he told me to deal with my anxiety on my own (When we fight, it kind of bothers my GAD and Panic Disorder.) and hung up.

Was what I did really that bad?

(Sorry for his language)

UPDATE:

Well. I know it's been a little while since I posted this, and I have to admit. I went through all of your responses a million times and cried every time, wishing I had the strength to do what y'all were telling me to do.

I couldn't end things though. Which is why I never gave an update. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. We've been together for a long time, and I just didn't feel ready.

But, as of today, September 12th, 2017, HE broke up with me.

There was a lot more going on than just pictured up above. He constantly ignored me for days, was very easily angered, and would blame all of our problems on me. Even if HE was at fault, I somehow was the reason why.

I love him with everything, and I didn't want to let him go, but we had a lot of problems, and I was starting to feel like I couldn't take it anymore. I was losing my mind, so I brought that up to him and told him that I wasn't sure if we'd work out. I told him I really wanted us to, but I just wasn't sure.

The result was him accusing me of having no ambition. Of ending up like my mother and not going anywhere in my life because I always made excuses for myself then he broke up with me and blocked me on everything.

Everybody says it's for the best, and a part of me thinks it is too. Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt though

Thank you for all the support and encouragement. I really appreciate it.