I need advice!!!!!!

Paula

Hey everyone I need advice. (Please no negative comments)

So I recently ended a serious relationship with someone who I cared a lot about. And I ended it because no matter how much I tried to make things work I felt like I was the only one putting effort and trying to fix things.

Thanks to that relationship I made some really cool friends.

When my girls found out I was single and in a bit of an emotional reck they took me out and we went to one of their houses to the pool and drank.

After that I started to hook up with a guy.

A few days ago, one of the friends I made from the relationship, messages me asking if I'm home cuz he's bored and wants to hang out. I was like okay I'll be over and we can go somewhere. We start driving and talking and he tells me that he's always been attracted to me and that it had turned into a crush recently but he hadn't told anyone and he had pushed it down since at the time I was still with his best friend (he was the first person to find out that my ex and I had ended)

And I always had a thing for him but I repressed it, which I admitted to him. And we talked and talked and ended up at the beach. And the more that we talked the more the tension grew and the attraction. He wanted to kiss me but he didn't want me to regret anything that might happen so he held back. I wanted to kiss him but didn't want to ruin his friendship with my ex. When I told him that I wouldn't regret anything. He kissed me and honestly I've never felt anything like that before. That kiss made me melt inside and all I wanted to do was just stay there and kiss him. We kissed for a while. Then he said something under his breath and I didn't catch it so I sat on him to try to get him to tell me (playfully without thinking) and it quickly changed the situation to have a sexual tension. We talked more and he tells me that we would like to have sex with me but he doesn't want me to regret it or feel like that's the only thing he wants.

We later went and got something to drink and he got protection. We ended up having sex in his car at the beach parking lot. And honestly nothing has ever felt like that. And it was very basic things nothing over the top. Just normal v sex.

Fast forward the next day we hardly get to talk because he's with my ex and friends all day. My mind overthinks and send him a long message ask him if we can talk he lets me know when he gets home and I go other and we talk (and have sex).

Since then we haven't talked much He's been with my ex and in their group of friends he broke bro code (by sleeping with me) and I'm starting to feel like I lost my friend. Which is the one thing I didn't want to do.

I later talked to my best friend and told him this whole mess and he reminded me of a bad habit I have if not being allowing myself to heal before jumping into new things. And he's right. And I've messaged the guy to talk to him and he's been busy. And now I don't know what to think. I really feel like i need to talk to him about things and tell him what's going thru my mind and what I'm feeling and see where he stands.

I truly believe that he wasn't just for sex but isk with how he's been acting he's making me doubt that and question if i really knew him or not? And since he won't even reply to my normal message idk if I even have a friend anymore. And that's what hurts the most.

Help! What do I do?