Feeling sad and depressed and guilty...

I'm sad because I work with 95% males and they were all talking about their wives being at home with their children and here I am wanting nothing more than to stay home with my baby but yet I'm the one working and my husband stays home.

Mind you, my husband and I decided on this together because I made enough money to support the family whereas he did not but I feel like I didn't really have a choice sincebi was the only one making enough money. My husband is a good guy but he has never been motivated when it comes to finances and finding better work so I just got sad knowing that I will most likely never be able to stay home with my children since it is very unlikely that my husband will ever work towards finding a job that can support us a family.

Im depressed because I know I have a good man but I also didn't expect things to be the way theu are with him. He loves me and I love him but he has no drive and I see so many of my male coworkers who are working full time jobs and then working side jobs or overtime in order to provide for their family. I know the grass isn't always greener and I know I should be grateful to have a good husband but I can't help but wonder what if...

I feel guilty because I keep wondering what if and keep wishing things could be different all the while knowing that things could also be a lot worse and I should just be grateful for the good and stop focusing on the bad.

Sigh*

I don't know what to do...