I can't seem to shake this lonely feeling, as more I try to fight it, the more it hurts me.

18 years old I had my first miscarriage (3/18/16), 2 months ago being 19 almost 20 I had my second miscarriage (6/7/17). Let me tell you a story. My babies are already named. My great grandma died long ago when I was 5-6. 4 months after having my first she came to me in my dream, she told me she named my first Wicasa. Then a few weeks after having my second she came to me again and had named her Winona. I know many people wouldn't believe but I'm very influenced in my culture. So by that I have a son and a daughter. I'll tell you this also, they weren't planned at all. I'm very young and don't quiet imagine having kids anytime soon. Lately though my body has just been feeling lonesome, I want a baby but I know it's just my emotions reacting towards my loneliness. My depression has taken a big toll upon the situations that's happened. I can't get over it at all and I don't know how too. I'm just so lonely, I'm sad, I'm angry, and overall upset. I see these girls become so strong, all I want to know is how do you ladies do it? 😞