im starting school soon and I am so sad and my anxiety started. like I hate everyone in my school except like 2 people. and people don't bully me but they talk behind my back. it hurts because I already have such low self esteem. I hate myself but I try to act like I don't care. I try to act like those people are my friends just because I don't want to be lonely. btw I'm 13 and I just had to tell someone.