45 I suppose I should just give up

Sparrow

I'm 45, my husband is 47. we have both been married before and have children from those marriages. we were highschool sweethearts tho. when we were in HS, we had an abortion and blame that decision for why we feel we're being punished now. I guess my question is has anyone gotten pregnant naturally? we can't afford any fertility treatments. we've been together for 3.5 years and in the first year I got pregnant and had 3 miscarriages.