TTC for 8 months and I'm getting discouraged. I have 3 already and he has 2 so why is this so difficult? I feel like my obsession is driving us apart in a way bc every month that it's negative I'm getting more and more distant. And I know I should tell him but I don't want him getting scared lol if that makes sense. We have sex ALL the time I don't understand. ughhh AF due tomorrow I'm already spotting and it's getting darker every time I pee. Could really use some encouraging stories or words ladies!!!

(Background): my youngest child is 7. I got pregnant last year by an abusive man so I got an abortion. yes, I know this is prolly karma but I had my reasons so don't judge me. Now, fresh start I'm with my middle school sweet heart there is nothing I want more than to give him a child. But I can't help but to wonder if it's karma or not meant or something is wrong. My body healed fine and my periods have been regular. I'm just about to give tf up!!!!!!! 😖