In February I was 8weeks and I went into my drs office expecting to see a heartbeat after seeing a flutter of one at 6 weeks, only to find out the little ones heart had just stopped. That resulted in 2 D&C;'s in less then a week.

August 9th I tested positive. I was super excited but scared to death. I begged my husband to not tell anybody yet just in case. This past weekend I started spotting brown after sex on Saturday. Monday I spotted bright red and went to the ER.

At the ER they ran beta test and my count was only 301 which was low for 5 weeks. An ultrasound showed no sac or anything. So today I went to retest my beta count and it only went up to 334. About an hour ago I started bleeding like my period.

I feel so ashamed of my body...but yet I understand the science of it all. I'm so sad.