About a year and a half ago i found out i was 9 weeks pregnant without knowing.

My boyfriend has a son with someone else and had him when he was 19..

He felt like abortion was the best thing as his son was only 2 and we figured it would be difficult for the two of us to care for a baby and a toddler all at once.

I thought that abortion was a good idea because i was not financially stable to care for a child nor was i emotionally or physically ready...

I went to the doctors and they insisted on an ultrasound, the ultrasound tech asked if i wanted a photo.. i took it and now till this day i am catching myself looking at it wondering "would it have been a boy or a girl" "what would i have named it" "i wonder what it would have looked it"

i'm also depressed about the decision i made.. some days i think i shouldn't have done it and other days i think it was the best decision i could have made..

I need advice..