Lately I've been feeling down. More so than usual. I am used to the numbness, and the self hatred, and the lack of motivation. But lately I am just so tired. The other day I was tempted to take an entire box of Claritin just so I could sleep.

Lately I've been feeling down. And it's not the first time I've felt this way. I remember hating myself and hurting myself and praying for death and crying myself to sleep and wishing I could be anybody else.

But I can't be. I'm just me. And I'll always hate me.