This is not her first suicide attempt. She's been in and out of the hospital for her mental illness. She used to go to therapy. She still lives with my mom and is 26 years old. Just got fired at her job at a hardware store. Literally does not do anything. Obviously, I'm broken because that's my sister. Then again, when does this end? Does it ever get any better. She takes her meds, sometimes. She's very irrational and unpredictable. You never know what's coming. I'm sorry if this sounds selfish. But, it's been years since any of my family have had a "normal" life. She's tired. My family is tired. I'm tired. I'm trying not to give up hope, but there comes a point when I have nothing left to give with being so busy in my life and trying to do my own thing. I regret the fact I even wrote this. But, I just want someone to listen. I wish I had someone who could relate. Nobody knows. Some people don't even know I have a sister. It kills me inside.