Going on a break!

Holly • Got my BFP on the 8.7.14 xx
Today is 12dpo! Had a smily opk on the 29th and 30th May and ovulated on 1st June.
​How can I have a smiley face on 30th if I'm not ovulating as I have come on what I think may be my period two weeks after the first smiley that was the 29th!
​I'm so bummed out and just feel like it will never happen! 
​i have brown/red discharge that I'm sure if my period.
​Times like today make me think of my two angels that I misscarried on the 11th December and 12th April!
​I'm going to go on a break for 1-2 months completely forget about the whole process.
​Sad, hurt, angry... Not even enough to explain the way I feel.
​Thankyou all for your support throughout this 2ww!
​Hope you all get your positive pregnancy test xxxx