I feel guilty...

Jaella

I feel like the worst mom for admitting this but I can't wait for this pregnancy to be over. I'm only 10 weeks, and I feel completely selfish for feeling this way.

I can't wait to hold my child, but more than that, I feel like everyone is telling me what I can't do. I'm an athlete. I am a zumba instructor, an equestrian (hunter/jumper), and a martial artist.

I'm used to pushing myself past the "wall" and the mentality shift is frustrating.

I understand that I need to keep myself safe for the baby. It's not that I don't care about my child, if anything, I'm finding that I'm afraid. I'm afraid of doing anything, just because I'm scared that I'll accidentally do something that will hurt my baby.

So as much as I'm excited to see my baby, to hold, kiss, feed, <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.nurture">nurture</a> it... I'm finding myself somewhat... Sad during pregnancy. Frustrated. Scared. Has anyone else felt this way?