okay, yes, i know this will aound crazy. i need help to figure out if how i feel makes sense, or of im crazy. (not really crazy but ya know)

my husbands best friend is also my friend. shes one of my best friends but not nearly as close as her and my husband. we all talked for a bit about her being our surrogate.

so she gets us both together (she doesn't live close so she gave us a heads up that she wanted to talk to us both together. we planned a phone call but it happened through text) and says that she had an abortion.

i do not know why i reacted this way, i promise i am normally a very open minded person, but i lost my shit. literally couldn't hold it together. i was so upset that i cant get pregnant and she can and she just threw it away. ( i know thats not how it happens, these were my emotional and selfish thoughts, please dont kill me). so i went on a long walk with lots of crying, argued, with my husand, etc. i think the thing that set it off was bc she wanted to get us both together so i planned in my head for over an hour what she could want and i for some reason just knew she was pregnant. except in my crazy selfish brain i thought maybe she'd let us adopt it. she is in no way ready for another child. (no i didnt think about baby daddy,these are still my selfish thoughts)

so fast forward to the next day i asked my husband to make sure that he didnt tell her how i felt. it wasnt going to help anything, and i felt like it was a conversation for him and i, not him and her. he hesitantly said no.

after a brief conversation with her today, i am almost certain that he did tell her.

we have had in depth conversations about bringing our arguments to people we know (hense me being anonymous).

do i have a right to be upset that he told her? or am i just crazy? please be nice, i dont need my my head ripped off.

TIA!!