I'm so tired. I'm tired of trying. Trying for the one thing I want most in this world. I'm tired of fighting. Tired of having sex, but not being able to finish because of my husband's knee and back problems. Tired of trying not to feel a small amount of resentment because of that. I'm tired of having to temp. Tired of sticking my fingers up my vagina to try and get some cm to see, "hey is this it?" Tired of Google. Tired of questioning everything because you never know, that could be a sign, symptom, cause, effect, ANYTHING. I'm tired of seeing those around me pop up pregnant, having kids back to back. I know I don't know their struggle, but it still hurts. Tired of seeing brown,pink, and red in my underwear, toilet, or when I wipe. I'm SO EXHAUSTED.